Those were the days my friends, we thought they'd never end.

Have you seen the one with the monkey's big break? The one where Ross and Rachel take a break? Or the one where Joey moves out?

If you have, F.R.I.E.N.D.S has been a huge influence in your life too. The show about six friends who share space in each other's apartments and meet for coffee at Central Perk, a mythical Manhattan cafe. They share their day to day adventure or lull with their best buds.

After 10 season run, it will be remembered as one of the greatest and the most influential sitcoms of all time.

If you know me well, you would know how passionate I am of the series, so much so that I have my writing board filled with articles and pictures of the show! Call me crazy, but, I love every bit of the show.

You are probably wondering why I chose to write about the show and its influence on me after so many years of its existence in my life. It took me only a few seconds to awaken to the importance of Friends in my life. Pun intended.

I have watched the show almost everyday with my very own Ross Gellar. Well, if you are still wondering, if I was given a chance to play a role in the series, without a second to think I would call - Monica Gellar. :-) I remember thinking one night before falling asleep that now being OCD seems alright since people have loved and accepted Monica Gellar! 

The perfect cast, the perfect time slot, the perfect time in our culture to have a show about friends as our family. Having mentioned the above, I would like to draw special attention to the "perfect time in my life". 

I was doing my Bachelors and Masters degree as the show continued to anchor in my life. Having been a people's person always, I subconsciously started to build friendship in groups and when I look back today, with a sense of accomplishment I would say that these are friendship I have built for Life. The show was taking over my thought process in ways unknown to me. In a way it was and will always continue to be a huge positive influence in my life. 

I take this opportunity to thank every 'friend' I have built over the years and the ones who have and will be a huge positive influence in my life. Most of them, are still pretty unaware of their importance in my Life.

Be it Jennifer Aniston's hairdo discussion or a guy at a restaurant using Joey's pick up line "How you doin" or making funky and jazzy jewelery like Phoebe or Chandler's witty comebacks, the show had gotten into our psyche. Even today they don't fail to cheer me up on my worst days and cheer me up even further on my best.

I remember crying during the very last episode that was aired on national television. I remember crying during my farewell party at college. Those were really the days, I thought they'd never end. And they also say all good things have to come to an end. Too bad, no one told you life was gonna be this way. :-)

From Opposite Ends

From opposite ends of the earth we came,
trundling our bags,
our treasures,
our laughter,
our hearts.

From opposite ends of the city we came,
From different points where we stood still,
So near, yet far apart.
From opposite ends of the world we came,
silent, cautious and unseen.

From opposite ends of a lifetime we came,
and found a life of magic hovering in between.
From opposite ends of a heart, we smile,
Two lives blended into one,
with no more opposites to approach,
the you,
the me,
the we growing day by day,
looking for the way to find what I'd always dreamed and never seen,
always tried and never been,
always thought but never knew,
until at last I discovered that the gift
I always sought was You.

The rest of the world sits around in a knot,
a complicated ball of strangled confusion,
And bundled hopes beyond repair.
While in simple silence,
have our private miracle to share.
O pity the poor tangled,
strangled knots, which we,
Thank God, are not!

My mind is screwed up.

Is there anybody in there
Just nod if you can hear me
Come on now
I hear you're feeling down
I can ease your pain
And get you on your feet again
I'll need some information first
Just the basic facts
Can you show me where it hurts?

There is no pain, you are receding
A distant ship smoke on the horizon
You are coming through in waves
Your lips move but I can't hear what you're saying

When I was a child I had a fever
My hands felt just like two balloons
Now I've got that feeling once again
I can't explain, you would not understand
This is not how I am 

 

- Pink Floyd - Comfortably Numb

Wait. My mind 'and' heart are fucked up. Recently it looks like it has been pumping a lot more blood than it should. <No, no I do not need a doctor. Maybe a shrink would help!> So I assume the blood pumps the heat in my body - from head to toe and clearly creates a hormonal imbalance not just in my body but also in my soul.

My world spins, the minute my eyes meet his. I start to act shy and coy like a ten year old girl. I can pick random conversations with even a stranger, but my frigging tongue is tied when I sit in the same room as him. Maybe I am judging myself too much. I do have strange conversations with him. I am strictly saying this out loud just to make myself feel good!

Well, I know I will learn from my mistakes and atleast learn to act my age around him, next time! ;) But when you have a screwed up mind fighting and scaring your poor little heart, how would you react? And my mind is spinning out of control trying to process every bit of information thrown at me. I chose to be in this. Now I challenge myself.

This is the time in every girl's life when they are searching for happiness. I look happy. I am happy. I do happy things. I have everything I ever wanted - a harmonious family, unique friends, money & material pleasures. My heart usually doesn't have a huge appetite, it is contented with just starters. That is why I just feel happy that it is my birthday and my loved ones are thoughtful enough to wish me with a hug. My birthday begins and ends there. I wouldn't even get to the level of birthday gifts.

But lately my mind and heart itches for something more. I wouldn't know how else to describe it. Somewhere, deep down, your heart craves for something beyond happiness. I pray deeply that I do not get into any form of Synthetic happiness. Synthetic happiness is very close to natural happiness. The only difference is that it is stimulated by training your mind to bend, fold and play around the reality at hand to produce an outcome of happiness.

This works. It really does. I believe it does. However, I’m too cynical and introspective to accept this method for myself. I call it self-deluding and I would always know I was deluding myself and therefore this wouldn’t work.

I believe in vibrations. His vibrations have this unique power to produce calmness around me and chaos in my mind & heart, both of which he does without any recognition. 

It will take me just a few seconds to say, "Hey! You know I like you, right?" or "I'd really want to be a part of your life". I secretly know my time is running out as days go by. But I choose to wait. I choose to wait for the right time because... he is totally worth it!

When you just get overwhelmed by emotions and your heart feels a pinch that you would rather be numb and enjoy it than to care. Screwed up stuff, I know. :)